This is my brain off work

Well, I’ve done it. After five years working in the corporate world, I’ve taken my parachute and jumped. As I’ve mentioned elsewhere in this space, I got a fine sendoff from Discovery Channel folks and I’m now officially underemployed.

There have been two main reactions from others: “Hey, man, you’re living the dream!” and “Oh, God, how will you make money now?”

After a week of dealing with the transition, I can honestly say those pretty much reflect the poles of my own reaction as well.

On the one hand, I’m getting a lot done, and I’m inspired by that, and I’m excited about the many great things that lie ahead for me. And it truly is a wonderful thing, to feel like my future is once again unwritten. Add to that the amazing support and love I got from my friends and colleagues on making my departure, and it’s a great time for me.

On the other hand, I’ve never been any good at being poor. I don’t like it, and it makes me anxious.

Which means the peace of mind that was the ostensible reason behind all this is doubly threatened: (a) I’m working as hard, or harder than I ever was, and (b) if I start to panic about money, I won’t take the time I knew all along I really needed.

And there’s another factor: (c) when the hell am I going to get a good night’s sleep? I’m really concerned now that I don’t remember how to STOP GOING OUT AT NIGHT. I need to be a really big help to myself right now, and I keep getting in my own way.

I presume that won’t last forever, now that I’m focusing my attention on the issues. I’ll keep you posted.

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